GuiltY AffairS

"THAT MOMENT... WHEN MY LIFE BECAME A LIE"

"Wait…I heard a sound…"a panicked Pauline ran and peeped through her drapes to see if peter came home. She was relieved it was not his car. She went back to her bed. After 10 minutes, she again heard a car pulling up and she ran down to see if its peter but again it was someone else. Pauline went back to the Guest bed room and saw Richard dressing up. Richard asked “why you worried? Isn’t he out for long?” Pauline replied "it’s easy for you Richard to say it, am the one who is feeling guilty". Yes Pauline was having an extra martial affair behind her husband peter with his friend Richard and every night she repent over it, cry to sleep thinking about it. Its been eight months since she started an affair and she isn't able to see peter they way she use to see him before. It kills her of the thought that she is cheating her husband of five years. As the George Michael song says "I'm never gonna dance again the way i danced with you"

Peter and Pauline were happily married they were college sweet hearts. Richard is Peter's office colleague. Peter is a hardworking man and someone who gives importance to family life. He is working extra hours for their son Christopher and daughter christy. Pauline was a home maker and she loved it. She liked the idea raising kids and being with them. Things took a turn when the kids started going to school where she became merely to a lonely housewife and she didn't have much to do. That's when the affair started, something which she started to spice up her life turned out to be the biggest guilty pleasure for her. It was time she decided to confront Richard about it. She wanted to know if they can move in together because she cant cheat Peter anymore.

Richard was happily married and rejected Pauline's idea immediately. He said it was just fun for him and she should also look it as the same. Pauline was devastated but somewhere she knew she did it not because she loved Richard but out of love for peter. She thought about it and she decided the best way to sort is to come clean about it with Peter and what worst could happen either he will leave her or he will go in for a divorce but she was ready to face it but she was sure she had to do it. Just then she heard the honking of car. Peter came in and asked about the kids she said they are asleep. They sat down for supper Pauline waited for the supper to get over. Slowly she said "Pete i need to tell you something" Pete looking at her said " Say dear". She took the courage and said "Pete please dont hate me for this but i have to tell you this". Peter became more alert and he knew its something serious. Then with all braveness she said "I am sorry I been cheating on you for last 8 months". A shattered and confused peter took couple of seconds to grasp the intensity of it. Without saying a word he got up and went for front door , took his coat got his car keys and drove away. As Rihanna song says She was UNFAITHFUL to him...

Pauline stood there crying and watched him driving away. She went back and sat on the couch thinking about it. She understood no amount of adventure, spice or anything was worth her love for family, her love for her kids and especially her love for peter. She felt it was the right thing to tell peter about it because its the correct thing to do. Pauline didn't care about forgiveness from peter but that he deserved to know the truth.Peter may take his own time to accept it and he may forgive Pauline only time will tell it.

Relationships are something we take for granted. The more busy they get we think they dont love us but in truth they are providing for the future. When we cheat on our partners we forget all those great moments we had with them and spoil them for ever. For some its a solace but they forget to understand no one else can give you happiness apart from you. We are humans and we do have emotions but we need to value the pros and cons of going behind those emotions. Is it worth to go behind it and destroy the existing happiness. Do we have any guarantee the happiness we had for a day will remain the same forever. Its all a myth which is in movies where the hero and heroine find real love and live happily forever.

We shouldn't be a fool enough to give away what we have, for a day of Lust and Happiness. Also its really wrong to have an affair behind your partner's back. You need to come clean about it with your partner because that's the best way to say sorry to them and more importantly respecting them and let's not expect our partner will forgive. Let them take their own time. 

Today Pauline is still waiting for Peter to come back. Its really tough for them to built a relationship again and it wont be the same. Now all she worries is about is peter going to forgive her and most of all "WAS IT WORTH IT..." As the Prince Song Says. I never meant to cause you any pain or sorrow...

 

Yes it's one question we also need to ask our self"...IS IT WORTH..."

Yes we all have those moments, but hold yourself because it may have Catastrophic effect..XOXO